This is me accepting the fact that i (wanted to) give up on love. 28 years young, never been in a single relationship, no dates, no flings, no nothing. I Reject love and avoid affection, even though sometime i crave for it.
Falling in love is like jumping off a cliff, terrifying and exhilarating, and you have no idea where you'll land. Would you just jump off a cliff with nasty rocks below? no.
Love is such a terrifying thing, i hate feeling attached to someone, and having such a profound feelings to a certain person is terrifying.
Loving someone means you’re eventually going to het hurt. When you lose them, it hurts, it hurts so much you’ll lose yourself. I only have myself, aku mungkin bisa menahan banyak sedih dalam hidup tapi kalau urusan patah hati aku gak bisa. I can't afford to lose myself.
And to my future self reading this, i hope you've healed and life has gotten better 🫶🩷😘
